i'm wondering why happen to me during netball, i guess it's not me. As the stuff i do in netball was dam terrible. my PASSES SUCKs, SHOOTING sucks, ATTACKING sucks and LOTS more. GRhh. Now Feel very stress in netball i guess i put too much on myself. And have no confident at all. Feeling that the person in me at that time is not me at all. *SCREAM* I need someone to cheer me up and someone can help on the netball skills. WONDER who can help me to solve this problem. But i think the best person is myself. I must Believe myself that i can do it. Nah... Arhh I dont want to say this anymore it will make me feel terrible like crazy. Actually i'm suppose to be a girl that is very cheerful and hyper active that my friends think of me. But when i'm in netball i think i change to another person. Guessing it's too stress during trainings but i think i shouldnt put too much to myself. Hoping next training i wont be like that. SAying the truth all of them are pretty strong. so admired them. Actually today feeling very down, but after seeing my friends my face totally change to the hyper one. I guess i'm a person making people very Not happy easily to make people fired. And i hate this type of feeling. And it's SUCKS alot. I hate it. HOw can i change this? GOd, can you help me get someone to help me solve this problem. Hope you will fulifilled my wish. But i just dont understand why people like to make to frustraded? I just dont understand. But i know in my class i hate some of the people. The reason that why i hate them is, they disturb me untill i really cannot take it and i go and throw stuff at them. but i'm serious i really throw stuff at them. Hope next year i will change my attitude to another person. That is different from this year. Like being kind to others , treat people nicely, must tolerate people who disturb me, must not be angry easily, this is my wish for myself. hope it wont happen AGAIN!!

Today after training went to kenneth house to find Xin Rong and felicia, But felicia was feeling like very down down. But i think she very tired. if i'm not wrong. Haha. But got secret between felicia and i. About ourselves haha. i got mine and she got hers too. haha. But sometimes i tell her my stuffs too.
FELICIA NO WORRIES YA. WE ARE FRIENDS. IF THERE'S ANY PROBLEM IN YOUR MIND, I WILL LEND YOU MY EARS AND HELP YOU. FIND ME IF YOU HAVE PROBLEMS.!! =)

Hoping to have a CLASS outing. And TEachers will go too, because some of them are not teaching us next year so hoping to get around for the last time. I hope will be at EAST COAST PARK or SENTOSA. Not comfirming where to go. hoping ALL TWOEIGHTIANS will come for class outing. HOpe so ya. Friends outing, emm i think i really have no time for this, but i can try to throw my time when there is no trainings. TO go out with them. But must see my parents allow me to go out anot.

Ops i have written too much already. gotta now. Tomorrow need to go to school and help mdm ker to do something.

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